The days are shorter. Sadness arises here. Tears fall, loneliness is felt.
And through it all there is a watching. A knowing that this is a state which has arrived and will depart. I was there before this state.
There is the seeing of a strong sense of a lonely, disconnected “me”, a feeling of hopelessness and so many thoughts. A river of thoughts that I’ve taken a plunge into and I get carried away for awhile.
And yet, even this is watched.
If I am witness to this, if I am experiencing this which before was not there… then I cannot possibly be this contracted ball of suffering that has arrived and will soon depart.
And it’s very easy to see that this body-mind is simply suffering from a lack of sunlight and sleep.